Easier said than done.

You were always my strength, the shoulder for me to cry on, the place for me to feel comfort. and only god knows how much you mean to me, and how much i miss you. you're one of a kind, it's really hard to find a guy like you. i met him but i lost him. mhmm, i still hope for the day where we would have just one more night together, again, just the two of us. I miss you so much, when we have to be apart. i just can't stand the fact that we have to separated this far boy.

:'((

I'm weaaaakkkkkk! i can't do this. do this alone. alone by myself. :(

Crack me up.

I love everything about you. no, really. mhmm. your hair, your plumpy cheeks, your lame jokes, hehe you know teka-teki you tu ha :P your smile, your way of showing that you don't have to try so hard to make me fall for you, the way you never fail to make me smile when i'm all messed up and upset and down, the way you express your feelings, the way you mad at me when i failed to go persuade you, the way you slowly whisper "i love you". i miss you boy, i really do. i miss us.

You're worth every second,

You complete me.

Ssa's Courtesy.

Would you hug your ex again?
not anymore.
Why did you and your last ex break up?
it's a long story and i think that you don't have to know well cause i'm not telling.
How many girlfriends or boyfriends did you actually love?
only some.
Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
mhmm yeah. well there is no love without pain okay, agree?
Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
i think so, yeah.
Are you happier single or in a relationship?
it depends. sometimes i felt lonely -.-
Would you ever lie to get an ex back?
i'm not that low.
Have you ever been cheated on?
yeah.
Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
yes.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.
If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
past is past.
Do you still love your ex?
not anymore.
Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend or boyfriend?
i can be.
Have you ever dated some one who was not good to you?
yeah.
Have you dated someone older than you?
yeah.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
well, it depends.
Do you Believe in love at first sight?
sometimes.
Ever want to get married?
someday.
Ever kissed your friend's boyfriend or girlfriend?
eeee i'm not that low man.
If given a chance, would you like to have your ex back?
not anymore.
Still Friends with your exs?
some of them.
Do You Like Anyone now?
i think so, but mhmm it's complicated :/

Reminisce.

I'm sorry for everything. i think this is goodbye. just take a good care of yourself. just know that, i'll be here for you, always. i'm sorry for everything, mhmm i never meant to hurt you. i lied if i said i never cried for you. (pftt)

I miss you every single day that you went away. i cried almost everyday. i gave you everything. i know you saw everything that i've done, but you acted like you did'nt. because deep down inside, i know you still love her. you never saw me who was infront of you. and it's okay, you know. i still loved you.

well yeah, i really wish it did'nt have to end like this. it breaks my heart to let you go. but mhmm this is what you want. i tried. she's so lucky to have someone like you. :')

Scha's Courtesy.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
well, mhmm sure.
Is there anyone you really want to see right now?
TOTALLY!
When did you first get Myspace?
since i was in form one.
What are you listening to?
lies by mc magic.
Do you miss anyone?
i do.
Do you like someone whose name starts with a B, D, M, C, A or J?
i'm not telling.
Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
emi zaki. :)
Do you regret something you did the day before yesterday?
mhmm, thursday you mean? i don't think so.
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
sometimes.
Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
let's just wait and see.
Did you go to sleep last night smiling?
mhmm nope.
What does the 4th text message in your inbox say?
you don't have to know.
When was the last time you bought something?
marlboro light 14.
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a L?
latif.
Do you believe in true love?
for now, it's crap.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
sangat-sangat.

Pack your bags and get out.

Hooyeahhh people! I'm back on track. :)

Pftt. lupa password la, hehe, now dah ingat, so yeah.

I'm off to bed. Good night, bitches and bastards.

Xx.

Everything is different now

"I can't continue taking this from you"

i never thought you'd be the kind of guy to do stupid stuffs. i gave you all of me. eveything you wanted, i gave you what you needed. and what-the-fuck, oh man, this is what i get? you're being very unfair to me. you set stupid conditions, wth. i've had enough, more than enough. you said you wanna train me to be mature enough, but all i can see is, heh the more suffer than before.

you have to stop accusing me, oh god. stop accusing me of all the things well you know you're guilty of. well i can see that it's easy for you to like, put all the blame on me. blame everything on me. no fair, no fair. erghhh, stress much :( well to be more fair then, i should go out having fun with all my girls and do all the things you stop me from doing it and all the things you hate. fair enough?

you break your promises. the promises you've made, you yourself made it without me forcing you to do it. this is not your first time of breaking the promises. no really, it's not. and you know it yourself. well i thought, you'd change. i thought you'd learn from all the mistakes you've done. but no, you're doing all the things you've promised me not to do. i don't know why you'd ever lie to me.

well, how do you feel now? was the alcohol and cigarettes worth it?

ohh, if you're so strong enough. ego-istic much. i might as well just leave you and us today. no, remember, you made it this way. uh huhh -__- hmm. i fell in love with you, oh boy. but now, i sadly realize, i ask myself, who are you? i don't know you anymore. you've changed.

i can't tolerate with those stupid fights and sleepless nights anymore,

oh plus, the fussing and fighting we had. ++ crying part too.