I still remember a crush of mine who broke my heart
hello journal. :) well yeah, here's the story. sit back, woo be calm, grab some pop corns ke eh eh snickers or yeah kit kat would be definitely great. yuumyyyy! hihi. *sshh* the story goes...
we were both fourteen years old tau that time, and we became friends after getting to know each other. it was like sort of le, one of those, "love at first sight" *ececeh. kind of things for both of us, and we soon began hanging out a lot lah together, studying for mid year and tests semua lah kan. then, grabbing a bite to eat, catching a movie with friends, i mean other friends pun ikut, hihi.
we discovered we had so much in common, itu ini semua agak a lebih kurang sama je semua tau -.-, and i was convinced this guy was "the guy". he was everything, yes EVERYTHING, i wanted in a boyfriend. hah! can you guys, like woohoo, imagine lah? hehehehe. he was cute, nice, veryvery sensitive, funny. its just that err dia putih sangat sial, gila not my type :s bila jalan bersama macam errr then grhh ouchh gila tahu takk. haha tapaham tapa lah en, teehee ;)
things felt so riigghhtt. that i thought my feelings were mutual. while nothing had happened to indicate we were more than friends. what a pity :/ cheii. i felt very clearly that's where we were going, so when i confessed to him how i felt one rainy day. cam after school, jumpa semua kejap. so i did confessed :s (eyy bukan terus ckp, i suka you, be mine? eeee. no no!) it was rainy day tau that evening, he didnt even respond (babi lebih kau ni HAHAHAHA) the way i'd hoped, and there, hmm i was really really crushed.
i was really dissapointed, and i felt hopeless, so cam pergi habis credit call my bestfriend ni tau. then then, my bestfriend explained that he did like me, its just that, he had just gotten out of a relationship and he didnt want to go there again. well in the same time, he told me that he still liked me a lot and wanted to continue spending time together. well hmm, i couldnt do it. i knew i'd never be able to just, "hang out" as friends, oh just friends, knowing that i felt something more yeah more than he did for me. (can you guys imagine it?)
the end, thank you.
well koraaaannggg, its normal thing kan? mcm, its a common dilemma when friends crush on other friends. kan kan? LOL.
till here,
xxx
